mary&max

hiii blogii..again I needed months to write n u no quite well why
the same daily bla which make me down as ever so I spend my days after coming home facebooking or sleeping or watching disney movies...afriend of mine suggested the animation movie max and mary for me..well what can i say about it,,,its been months since my brother death i never see such a deep meaning movie for u no that I quit t.v programms just becuz I get my very enough hurt from the world so I ddn need mich more...watching the Guls grewing up with their father was the tragical thing I ever seen..
anyway...the movie was a bout mary who is a gul of 8 years old living with a mom who is drunk all the time n ddint have time to answer the little so smat daughter such as from where the children comes and what is love etc. Mary was lonely Gul so she chose a randomw name from the phonebook n write to max whi is overwheight man live very lonely life which his psychtric couldnt help to make it happier...he was just like most of us have the prpblem of being kinda ideacal...anyway m not going to talk about it anymore u can c it but the thing which i wanna say here is that i need to share..Share is the word ...by share I mean share my detailes with a friend, alover a soul ,,,someone who do want to listen whithout judgeing me...some one who will not fall in love with me when I m stupid.mad,looking for my wings...


love blogiee

ابكتني طويلا

alone again

the beach is aching

guess m gonna try it again to live by the Rock,the beach,the waves ALONE

their language is the language of lonesome souls

m gonna get used to it right

??
m gonna try @LEAST

miss ya

Time can kill the light of the faces
but never kill the faces themselves

try hard to pass it over
thinking that everything gonna be another world
try not 2 care but the dreams which calls my name
say more than my tears
still missing ya as hell

*_*

well Bloggii
its been tough times so I was away spending it alone without talking
Losing my bro was the most hurtful n killing thing ever
I used to live with blue face n sad stuffs
but 2 c ppl who Ido care of livng it n not helpn them 2 pass it was my killn disease
death is the power of God to make us blv that life is just a waste of time
in the 1st weeks i was wondering if i can smile again or have dreams
the silly thing is that i still have them
cry alot n still
I got images n cant get rid of it
the moment when i new,to way back home
my mom weepn which follow me everwhere eve n when she sell asleep
i alawys blv that life unfair
but this make her kill the roots of smile in my face
let everting happen 4 nthng worse may hust me as the 1st losss

phase 1

I am trying to find a place to my self these days
i feel lost since two weeks ..feel that life has no place to me
feel that i don belong to all this dirt...Is is loneliness which make me feel such
no I am not alone 4 I got gr8 friends n i do love them
so why all this emptiness in my soul
I keep thinking of death I don no why
even I imagine the grave is the only place which want make me stop thinking
i m sorry if this is making u feel down
hope my next dairy will be more shiny N it ll be so
for life got so many phases n sure it ll show me another tomorow
worse one i guess*_*